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i live
i smile
i grin
i laugh
i giggle
i chuckle
but
then...
i also cry
i sob
i weep
i whimper
i shed tears
i make mistakes
i make promises i don't do
i get mad
i get angry
i fear
i disgust
I hate

but...
i love
and i will stay
no matter what it takes

THE NEXT BEST THING TO LIFE...
IS HAVING THE BEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD... MY FAMILY

Hurt

There are things in my life that i wished it never happened... At a certin point, I almost gave it all up, and be dwelt in anger, fear, rage and hatre. i felt that everything's out of control and i was slowly falling apart... apart from reality and apart from where i stand..

The pain was aggravating through the days. Cold and fearful of tomorrow. I wished it ended with just a blink of the eye that one day upon waking, it's all gone...

but one after the other, another hurtful moment came, even ore excrutiating that before. More pain i felt, more dreadful it became...

At that instance, i was surely decided to quit. But quit? It's easy to spell out but difficult in making into reality. This is not the same as before. I realized that even though how painful it felt, some things are not just worth forgetting.

Im tired of all these mess.. Tired of facing all worthless sacrifices. I've sacrificed a billion for a purpose of whom I thought could bring happiness intothe world I built into, but to the trash it went.

Now... I have to start rebuilding myself for courage and strength because i know I have to start again from where I started on before.

To begin with...

TRUST...

New Year's Resolution

As a fruitful year starts, I want to forget all the terrible things that happened to my life during the previous year, to erase all the pains I've felt and forgive all the people who have hurt me and caused me so much pain. To the people whom have destroyed my family and nevertheless whom are whom are happy seeing me in despair and deceitfulness. I surrender tham all to the Lord, who owns the world and everything in it. May all the chaste seize and bring forthe happiness and success in my life ncluding my family's. Let love wilder in the hearts on my enemies and to the ones I love so deeply. May peace and serenity be in at all cause. Let love rule all around us.